It’s hard to know where to start with a testimonial? Because I have never really written one and I have never in a million years thought i would be writing one on Reiki??

 

First things first about Simon hmm well if anyone can connect in such a way as he can to a person that being me on an equal level yet still be such an amazing teacher its Simon.

 

I started my unknown journey in Dec 2017 at a little place in Thailand called Atmanjai where I stumbled across Simon.

 

Even going to Thailand was an unknown  because I was supposed to go to Bali ?? It was my first overseas travel on my own .

 

I left my home and gave my husband one day notice that I was going to Thailand and could he take me to the airport? I was in a pretty fucked up space in my head at that time.

 

I was on anti depressants and drinking up to 2 bottles of wine a night on my own which I had never done other than this past year.

 

I have always had a pretty volatile relationship with alcohol tho since I was prob 14 years old.

 

So I left my home for Thailand and I only got a one way ticket and wasn’t sure if I was coming back?

 

I had just relocated to Western Australia from Cairns Queensland and not buy my choice it was for my husband’s work.

 

I hated it here at the new town and I was depressed more than ever with no work , no friends, and no sense of self?

I was totally fucked!

 

So I didn’t know what was ahead for my relationship or for myself.

I just knew I had to get the fuck out of there  before I  went crazy.

 

So I went , I used a credit card that I was supposed to cancel to arrange my trip?

Not good I know but I knew if I told my husband or used our account he would stop me ?

I had a deep feeling inside that I needed to go and I needed to go alone, so that’s what I did I left!

 

So in Thailand one night at Atmanjai there was a bloke coming to talk about  Reiki , ok first thoughts for me was I thought Reiki was a load of Bullshit! True I did.

 

So I decided not to go to the talk and I would just hang out with some of the others but everyone at the retreat decide to go ? Hmm ok so I thought alright I’ll go check this shit out.

 

Well was I thrown for a sixer I had stuff happen to me personally that I couldn’t explain or understand.

 

While I was lying in the meditation state with Simon out front doing his thing and about maybe 20 other people meditating..I noticed my stomach contracting and lifting up ?? I couldn’t controll it , fuck me I had no idea what was going on but I just went with It.

 

At the end of the class the teacher (Simon) asked me to hang back .

 

He asked me if I knew what happened? I told him I could feel my body doing the convulsing but I didn’t know why.

I decided to book a private one on one session the next day.

 

I still thought Reiki was Bullshit but I had an open mind now ?

Anyway same thing happened again? .

 

I was due to leave Thailand the next day and go to Melbourne to spend Xmas with my kids and family.

 

So I set off with thoughts of Reiki , Simon and Thailand,as I’m writhing this I’m scrolling through hundreds of messanger messages between me and Simon dating back to Dec 7th till today 25th March 2018.

 

When I got to Melbourne I decided to do some distance Reiki stuff when I got a job ?, I was turning  into a sort of believer?, still on guard as I always was but  open to the possabilities coz this shit was helping me.

 

Unlike anything I had ever chosen to do and this is funny I didn’t even choose to do Reiki lol it kinda chose me ?

 

Simon is always there for me every step of the way and if anyone could read the text between us , nothing was too out there for him ?

He may not of always replied and I didn’t really write for a response anyway??

 

It just felt better to send what was going on and how I was feeling to him, felt like someone was always there, plus I can reflect on my time with Simon ,like for moments like now.

 

When I got home I still didnt have work, but decided I needed Reiki, and Simon found a way to make it all work.

 

The first few sessions of distant Reiki I had the stomach convulsions just like I did in Thailand ?

 

Apparently I only had a about 10 percent my own energy in my body and loads of negative energy of other people /things ?? Thats what was being released and fuck me it was like a bloody exorcism??

 

I have had Reiki1 attuning not so long ago and tbh since then my life has been turned on it’s head .

 

To do the attunement ment zero alcohol ? And for me this was going to be tough I knew it was ..?

 

I also decided to go off my anti depressants not long before atunement aswell??

 

I wanted to be fully clear well fully clear while being fully fucked up ?

 

The atunement went for 21days which I finished about a week ago ?

 

Ok so it’s very raw and very open especially when your used to drinking your feelings , drugging your feelings and basicly just shoving them under anything so you didn’t have to have that vulnerable feeling,  I dont do vulnarable well.

 

I’m a tough nut I’m a prison officer I don’t do soft ? I don’t cry ? I don’t look after myself I look after others.

 

Well I didn’t do soft well with me .I was always there for anyone else I was soft for them but when it came to me I couldn’t, I didn’t feel worthy I hated myself.

 

That’s why I drank and did prescription drugs and totally just wanted to fuck myself up and then hate myself more for doing that shit.

 

So being sober  and facing my demons head on was the hardest thing to do actually the hardest thing I’ve ever done.

 

I remember texting Simon and I’d just done a Yin Yoga workshop at home recently, and the whole time I was there I was thinking would you just shut the fuck up to the teacher? and can I just get out of here go over the road and get s bottle of wine and just relax lol

 

True story …..yoga relaxing?? no not for me not then any way! I would cry and cry and cry ? I thought I would never stop crying ? But it all balanced out in time.

 

And today as I write it feels ok to cry.

 

Thank God I chose to have Simon with me during the 21 days, and if your anything like me you will need that support too.

 

Oh by the way he doesn’t do bullshit either or piss in your pocket like I wish he would of some days ..oh poor me I would think at times ?so if that’s what your needing or looking for he’s not for you!

 

I really need a book to write all I need to lol there’s just too much to put into a small testamonie about my time with Simon ??

 

Well let’s talk about today , today I’m almost a month clean and sober ( still one day at a time ).

 

I’m still not working but I’m finally at peace with that(most days).

 

I’ve lost weight yeah I am over weight because that’s another part of self hate that goes along with the drugs alcohol and food consumption?

 

I’m actually not really dieting I’m just starting to like myself more and do things that make me happy and feel good.

 

My  new vibe is starting to attract my tribe 😊 and its a natural progression to loose the weight.

 

I’m getting into art (another new thing ) I’m living in the present that’s the main thing and the funniest thing about that is I didn’t have to try either?

 

It’s just happened like everything else that’s been positive (besides the alcohol that’s still a one day at a time thing).

 

So I’m still a baby Reiki 1 but this shit takes time, and its not something you can learn at a weekend retreat or study and not go through the feeling side of comming out I guess ??.

 

Coming out of self and just being ? Letting the girl that’s been stuck inside for years out .

 

And I found that girl is fun she’s soft she cries and she looks and observes with no judgment or attachment to herself .She’s pretty cool.

 

Reiki is a way of life for me now, I do 2 sessions on myself daily some are fullon some are just yeah nice.

 

I’ve made a room in my house for myself to meditate and just be , I’m starting to really love the new town I’m in and the right people and things are coming my way .

 

I ended up getting a ticket home to my husband as you’ve all probably guessed , and yeah I’m not so worried or concerned about what he’s doing or not doing these days ?

 

Again relationship is also a one day at a time thing for me, but the shit times are very rare , which is so good and I’m the one that’s made that happen!

 

You see he hasn’t changed , the place I live in hasn’t changed nothing has changed accept for me?

 

And I can 100 percent say that without my man Simon , my friend in the fridge lol , and Reiki that my life today would not be as it is.

 

So if your thinking your fucked or your life is fucked give bullshit Reiki a go lol.

 

So big thank you my number 1 supporter you are an amazing human and I am so greatfull to have stumbled across you and your bullshit Reiki.

 

Love 💜🕉

 

Jakki xx